Greetings to everybody (nobody) who reads this blog.
The years I've spent watching Golden Girls has finally paid off (ha! didn't think anyone would ever say that, did ya?). I've always admired her role on that show, and her acting career. I can now officially declare my love, loyalty, and fascination, yet again, with that charismatic sensation we know as Betty. She was featured in virtually every skit in the 2010 Mother's Day SNL special and boy did she stun everyone. My personal favorite skit featured dear Betty and Tina Fey filling out the census form. "Do you need a calculator? I took the batteries out for a crotch massager." That my friends is golden.
Finals are over. Summer is here. Days are scorching, nights are breezy. I love it. With lazy summer days comes, of course, daydreaming like it's no one's business. Thinkers always think but lately, my thoughts have entrapped me into a cyclone of ideas, desires, and critiques.
I know what I want. I know what I don't want, not now and not ever. I know how to fool others which has led to me being fooled. I slept for a total of 14 hours today. I dreamt of reality and my reality is a dream...
It is appalling to be in a state where everytime someone says hello or tries talking with you, you're skeptical of them and their ulterior motives. I am in that state.
Nothing appeals or satisfies me anymore like it once has. My smiles are becoming more and more fake. My laughs more and more forced. My tears more and more frequent. I have a direction in life, but even that feels pointless. I wake up, get out of bed, and go about my day. Waking up is the easy part. Getting up is difficult. And now I shall trick myself to sleep, in hopes that I can start tomorrow anew and refreshed.
